Last Day of February...

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Hey all. It's been a while, I know, and so much has happened since then.

First of all I've taken a break from writing [I still haven't finished TFA Beast Saga: Metamorphosis] for a couple reasons. I'm trying to sort out my head and my heart, and I've gone back to school to finish Certificate III in Textiles [so I can do Certificate IV next year].

My son turns 12 this Wednesday. This year is his last year of primary school, then he's off to high school. They grow up so quickly, and I'll confess for a large chunk of the last eight years I wasn't there for him. :( [I won't go into details.]

And less than a fortnight ago [a week after I started my course], I separated from my partner of close to eight years. Again I won't go into details, but we're doing the mature thing and trying to live in the same house as friends/housemates. It's beneficial for both of us.

Yes, I have a lot on my mind. I have many personal barriers, childhood trauma and fears/shame to overcome. Yes, I want to wallow in self-pity and perpetuate the familiar self-destructive cycle I've known for most of my life [certainly all of my adult life and during my teens]. Yes, I hate all of the horrible things I've said and done. But I have to forgive myself, accept I've done these things and let that guilt/shame go. Or else I'll stay trapped in the same self-destructive cycle for who knows how long, giving myself more reason to hate myself. And that's bad for me and my son.

Anyway, that's enough dark and depressing thoughts. When one door closes, when one chapter ends, when fire ravages bushland, new growth, new opportunities, a new chapter opens and rises from the ashes of the last. [Dramatic, I know, but I have a flair for the dramatic when I write. ;)]

Hooroo, DA peeps. Thanks in advance for reading and any comments I may receive. :)

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BlueNightFire's avatar
Sorry to hear things didn't work out with your partner. But like you say, the end is only the beginning of something new and shiny and new and stuff. (I'm not being as dramatically poetic as I would like to be at the mo. I'm sorry.) And your boys off to high school! Irish kids start high school at thirteen too, but British kids start at eleven. I think that's too early, but then again, Britain doesn't have the Tec. XD

Best of luck to you.